I apologize I haven’t been able to update my blog at all since I’ve arrived in Thailand. What a whirlwind. From 2 full days of travel by plane, bus, and boat, with an unplanned final destination being the emergency room.
The food in Thailand is delicious and I went into full vacation mode when I got here, indulging in everything from street food I didn’t even recognize to ice cream from the local family mart. I mean, it was 3 days of vacation for me before I was about to throw myself into complete self discovery. I deserved to indulge. Top all of that with my exhaustion from 2 1/2 days of travel and I ended up on the bathroom floor of my hotel room in fetal position.
I had no intention of meeting up with anyone on my travels over to Koh Phagnan. I came a few days early to enjoy some quiet time and on my stop over in Koh Samui I found out one of my yoga classmates was nearby. We had brief communications and miscommunications regarding where we were and how and when we’d try to meet up. With the wifi being so finicky here it didn’t seem likely that I’d meet Casey until our yoga teacher training actually began, which was fine with me. I’m a “get shit done” type of gal, have no fear of traveling alone, and was actually looking forward to completing the mission of the long journey on my own.
Casey messaged me that she was in the lobby of my hotel. I told her to come up to my room. I greeted her in my pj’s, with smiles and hugs. I told her my stomach didn’t feel too well and I’d be laying down and to make herself at home. Thankfully, we instantly got along, both being Southern California natives we found we had a lot in common.
A few hours later, Casey was fast asleep in bed and I was fast planting my head in the toilet. I was violently vomiting, so much so that I couldn’t even catch my breath to call for help. I scooted into the shower because lifting my head to the toilet was too difficult to bear. This intense and horrendous releasing went on for more than three hours. I knew I had to get to a hospital soon or my last memory may be of the designs of the dirty tiles on the bathroom floor of the Natural Samui Hotel.
I gathered the strength to call Casey from slumber. She woke and hesitantly opened the bathroom door. As soon as she saw me she said with horror on her face, “We need to go to the hospital now!” This complete stranger held my hair, helped me up, dressed my naked body, and comforted me like we’d been friends for years. It brings tears to my eyes just to write about it. She was so calm and reassuring while holding my hand the whole way to the hospital.
When arriving to the ER there were a few questions about insurance and no one would touch me until they knew I’d be paying. A good 20 minutes of puking up bile went by before a doctor finally opened my eyelids and looked inside my mouth. The horror on his face terrified me and he said “She needs fluids now!” I was extremely dehydrated. The next thing I remember I was being rushed by needles and moved quickly into another room.
I had severe food poisoning. The amount of time I had violently vomited had caused a tear in my stomach and I had a terrible infection in my stomach. Being in a hospital in Koh Samui so far from my loved ones was scary, but I never shed one tear. Casey contacted my family and friends and continued to hold my hand. She even slept on the couch one of the nights I was there so I wouldn’t be alone. Once I could hold food down, she brought me organic smoothies and healthy eats. Thank God for Casey. If she hadn’t been there I really may not have made it. It was no accident that we were brought together. The synchronicity with Casey was needed so that I could open myself even more to the possibility that all things are connected and on purpose.
I got news that my cousin Lindsey and good friend Renee had started a fundraiser to keep me in Thailand. My doctor’s bills had become extremely expensive and I was stressing over having to hand over all my hard earned spending money for my trip. I had worked so hard to be in Thailand. I spent months of foregoing sleeping in my own bed, countless flights, time zone changes, and kissing major ass at work. Was all of that hard work and build up just to land me in the hospital? I had come all the way across the world just to get sick and then head home? There was no way.
When I saw the out pour of Love and support on the Fundly page I first felt shocked, then I moved into uncontrollably sobbing in gratitude. That was the first of many tears shed. I didn’t even realize how many people love and support me. If I could have written this chapter in my life it wouldn’t have started out this way, but now I see that things unfolded perfectly. I needed to be completely cleansed, mind, body, and soul to prepare my immersion into deep self discovery. I needed to know how supported and loved I truly am. Wow! What an amazing feeling. There’s nothing like true love.
In finally believing in myself in turn you all believe in me. I Love you all and feel incredibly blessed to know you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am not here in Thailand for a vacation. This is a stepping stone towards my life’s purpose. I promise to impress you with mad yoga moves when I return and of course lots of love. When things get tough don’t doubt that everything is unfolding just as it’s meant to. Trust the process. The Universe is truly created and guided by invisible forces that elude rational explanation. Thank you Universe.